Don't Let Me Fall

       Right when you begin to think that nothing could ever break your heart again, that there is nothing left in the world that could hurt more, nothing to crush your ideals, dreams, basically world, it hits....it hits so hard, it knocks the air right out of your lungs. You keep telling yourself to breathe, just inhale, then exhale....one breath at a time...breathing is good. You need to breathe to live. Then, right when you've mastered breathing again, the pain in your heart is sharp, so sharp and you feel the tears just streaming down your face. These tears keep coming, strong and fast, and usually, crying helps; it cleanses the soul and you feel healed. Only this time, crying only helps for a few hours. Usually as you wet your pillow each night with those tears, the pain goes away for the 6 to 8 hours you sleep. When you wake up, that dull ache returns. You wonder what day you can wake up and the ache be gone. You tell yourself it's going to be all ok....that this is a dream and you will wake up for real very soon. Then, one day turns into the next, and you begin to realize that this is for real. This isn't going away overnight, and there is nothing you can do but pray...pray, wipe your tears, and go on with life because that's what this really is, LIFE. Your eyes are opened once and for all. Life happens, and then we die. But, it's best to not just let life happen. It's better to happen to life. So, you pick yourself back up, put on that smile even though your spirit doesn't feel it....you look in the mirror and say, "I'm going up, don't let me fall....."