Loyalty

       I have to say that I've been through alot of junk these past few months. Not only have people lied blatantly to my face, but also, people I thought I could trust truly showed me their real colors. In fact, as a young teenager, I would've put my face to the sky and said, "I'll never trust another soul." But I am not that teenager, but am an adult much to everyone's dismay. There are things that some people would like me to remember to my grave, but I feel in my heart that mistakes are to be learned from and life must move on. If you truly want to dredge up my failures and drag through the mud to make yourself feel better, then be my guest. I know deep in my heart that I need to move on, and move on with life I will. I look happily into the sunset and see a brighter future, a clearer tomorrow because all the gloom and sadness you brought into my life will but vanish from sight. I realize that people are brought into your life to test what you really are as a person. I must say that I have failed the test quite a few times, and the next time it is revealed, I plan on passing. I have confirmed my wounded spirit and call it healed. I know who I am and what I am capable of in this life. I know that words are powerful and can destroy and bring life. I choose to bring life to whoever crosses my path and the destruction that has once shattered my dreams will be rebuilt stronger than before. Yes, I have cried some tears as I am only human. Yes, I have raged in disbelief as I was in a weaker state of mind. I couldn't believe that someone could look me straight in the eyes and lie so boldly. I couldn't fathom believing in my heart that someone I trusted could in turn stab me in the back. But then, why couldn't they? Are we all but human who make decisions either out of fear or anger? Mostly decisions based on any type of feeling are wrong decisions. So, I say to you, I forgive you. I forgive you because I know deep inside you are a better person than you think. I know that you are capable of so much. I know that you were at your weakest moment. I know that someday you will look back and regret everything you did and you will need me as a friend. I can't turn my back on you. You see, there is something about me you don't realize nor understand fully. Once I am your friend, no matter where this life takes me or you, I will forever remain your friend. Yes, I have felt the pain on your betrayal. Yes, I have cried many tears, but know this, I forgive you...and I love you, my friend.