Sunday, October 16, 2011

Navy Blue

       Have you ever dreamed in color? I often do, and I can describe my feelings or dreams in color...today was a "navy blue" kind of day. As I sit here, I dream in blue...navy blue to me is a not as dark as black but almost there...I can honestly say that I'd love to dream in lime green again or even in orange because then my world would be bright and colorful. Today, it's in blue...a deep, deep blue. I'm not depressed nor am I sad...it's hard to describe my true feelings. I'm not non-chalant...I'm beginning to think I'm just "deep" today. I know that I miss my family as I do most every Sunday...Sunday reminds me of growing up...of the days my daddy took me and my sister to church when my mom was at work. It reminds me of the time he helped with communion and specifically told me I wasn't old enough to take it...but I did anyway...:) Sunday reminds me of walking to the church every single Sunday afternoon around 4:30 to get the choir books ready...it reminds me of my LOVE for music and always singing and playing the piano all hours of the day. Sunday reminds me of Ianazones pizza, drying dishes with my sis, reading til I fell asleep then waking up only to do it all over again. Sunday reminds me of waking up super early to deliver my paper route so I could make it to church to ride my bus route....Sunday reminds me of the Sunday I was proposed to on the bus, getting to church and almost fainting because I didn't want to tell my parents. Sunday makes me think of sitting on a wooden pew: Dad, Mom, Sam, Jo then me....hearing about the mischief from a previous Thursday night and seeing both of my parents look down the pew at me in disbelief while I wanted to slide under the pew and disappear forever. Sunday reminds me of the many fellowships in the evening when we'd stay and eat and fellowship until really really late...of the many secrets that took place that stay in my memory. So, I sit here and remember and am BLUE...tomorrow, I wish for GREEN....happiness and as much belief that Sundays past will forever stay in my heart.